Random again~

Walla~
It's another version of awaken without the help of my alarm. Yes, and guess what? I'm proud of it. Meaning that I had a full quality of sleep last night. It's 2.30 in the morning, I wake up fresh, reaching my mineral water, gulping as much as I wanted, at the same time, with full of trust from the online article, that drinking plain water in the morning can washed out your built up toxins overnight. I trust it. With hope that all my bad toxins will be excreted along with my insensible and sensible water loss. Please clear up my uninvited adult acne also. Haih.. :(

It's 4th of October, means in less than 2 months we will be facing our final exam. Classes begin to packed up, clinical round become a must attend class since there might be the patient for our clinical exams, and yet, so sad we will have to compete with the so big big and strong Egyptian, men and women. I guess just a glimpse over the patient's face will be enough for us.Huh.. Not to mention about our lost Saturday holiday, filled with Prof. Dr. Hamdun lecture of General Surgery. Luckily I love him and his way of teaching, so I think it's worth it. Yey!

Okay, that's all folk. Got lotsa topics to cover. Discussion with Dina is coming to it's end, alhamdulillah. And now, discussion with my fellow study group mate has just begun. It's going to be hectic and fast. But we'll try to do our best here. Allah knew what's best for us, remember? So, it's okay to be tired and busy. So long you tried. And don't forget to bring along the 'Tawakkal' inside. It's a must to keep calm and stay positive. Expectation is a must, but don't let it be the factor for your depressed and tension way of studying. Keep calm, and read. Don't forget to enjoy your coffee and chocolate. Raise your endorphin level for a better concentration and mood.

Heee... :)

Random thoughts~

Twirling my headphone wire, humming along with Clazziquai Project's song that I'm listening to, sipping my hot hot mocha drink, absorbing myself into my amazing tasty Galaxy Chocolate Hazelnuts bar...aaah..How can I be thankful enough to those who created coffee and chocolate..

It was 2.30 in the morning. I woke up early lately. Not because of the exam fever campaign. Na ah. But thanks to my alteration of biological clock, now my brain commending me to fall asleep exactly at 8 pm, everyday. And as for me, 6 hours of high quality bed rest was enough to wake me up at 2 am, not even by the roaring of my alarm. :)

Sitting alone in the middle of this early morning, just me. I read my General Surgery book, volume 2, with passion. Only accompanied by the sound of cat fighting at the ground floor, and with the dim of light from my table lamp, I was able to enjoy my reading. Hundred percent of concentration might not be achieved, but I just love this miracle loneliness. A feeling of loneliness that you can actually enjoy. 

Final examination is just around the corner. Day by day, I can see the shadow of tension and awkwardness between us. Everyone is struggling. And I'm not excluded. It is our final year, and all of us were striving hard enough to reach for the best. We are all big enough to act smart, rather than unnecessary unhealthy tension for bad competition. We were all putting ourself more on improving ourself, our results, and our way of studying, rather than comparing with each other to stand out within the crowd. Nope. Not anymore. :)

That's it. It's random. I know. But looking at the calendar, showing me, that we are already approaching winter season, and of course, insyaAllah, to be our last winter here, I just feels like posting today. 

6 years here. Can you imagine? It's already creeping to the end. How time flies so fast. And I just love how living in foreign country really thought me a lot. From managing my inner self, to properly manage my outside appearance. I found my inner peace. I begin to practice inner peace meditation. I know how to appreciate things we already have, and not depressing myself in order to get things that I wish I have. Because I just knew, gratitude will always be followed by dream come true surprises. I just knew, because it happen to me, almost everyday. Alhamdulillah..

Let us all enjoy the present moment. Forget about other's judgement. It's their problem. Not us. Focus on what makes you happy. Volla~  <3

^^

 “Don’t postpone joy until you have learned all of your lessons. Joy is your lesson.” 

~Alan Cohen

Lastly, enjoy this soothing Clazziquai song~ :)

Time to act~

Now. My mind kept telling me, NOW. 

But my body? NO.

Ugh! Final exam is just around the corner. In less than 2 months! Yes. And my study? Nadah! Slow motion, slower than the snail that carrying miracidia of schistosoma in their body. How can I be so slow? I want the old me! Fast, active, exciting! Where is me? Come back home now please! I need you!

I gotta start. No more procrastinating. Enough honeymoon dear. Time to act. Remember? Mumtaz is waiting. Bi iznillah. Aamiin.

"Don't take rest after your first victory. Because if you fail in second, more lips are waiting to say, that first victory was just luck. "--- Anonymous 

Cruel judges~

It's a top secret. What secret? It's a story about a pregnant woman who's getting married soon. Soon? You mean she's preggy before nikah? Wow.. What kind of girl is that? Tudung labuh, tengok lelaki pun tidak..ended up? Pregnant!

Labelled? HYPOCRITE!

Have you ever heard about this kind of funny story? About these kind of people who blindly judging others as they wish. Tired of them right? If it was me, they would have taste the sweetness of my free sized palm. On their pretty cheek. Yes. They deserved it. The same way they think they deserve to judge and punish others.

Words hurt. We all knew it. The worse the action. You talk behind them, you exposed their aib. You acknowledge the crowd to isolate them. Hmm... How killing someone slowly really work well with these technique.

It's worse when the person is someone who had great past history in our eyes. She's nice, super nice. She's alim, she's tawaduk and so on. And one small mistakes she did, poof! All the good things disappear. Just like that. Huh... Cruelty is everywhere. 

Can we just stop it? Who are you to judge people? Stop punishing others! You are not Allah. We are not God. It's Allah's job. Only He Knew what's really going on. It's their time of trial, so give them a chance to learn from it. Focus on yourself. All of us have our own trial, easy or hard way. Focus! And stop putting your nose into other's business. 

All we can really do is watch and learn. Avoid the same mistakes they have done. Talking behind them doesn't helping at all. Respect others. We are all standing on the same level. If you really love to say something about it, say it to them. Talk to them. Give them advice, directly. In a smooth way. Cara berhikmah. That's what we can do. Judging? Punishing? It's Allah's job. Not us. So stop acting like one.

 ‎"Sesungguhnya apabila aku menasihati kamu, bukanlah bererti akulah yang terbaik dalam kalangan kamu, bukan juga yang paling soleh atau solehah dalam kalangan kamu, kerana aku juga pernah melampaui batas untuk diri sendiri.Seandainya seseorang itu hanya dapat menyampaikan dakwah apabila dia sempurna, nescaya tidak akan ada pendakwah, maka akan jadi sedikitlah orang yang memberi peringatan."      -Imam Hassan Al Basri-

I heart bone~

I say yes to orthopaedic! I lurrrve ortho.

I know it might sound annoying to some people, since so far that I know, a lot of my friends were not so in love with this hardcore subject. Well, can't argue to that. Since I used to be one of them.

Yes, I used to say 'uff' to ortho. But not because of the subject, but the lecture's environment, it's so dark and quiet, and I tend to sit at the most behind, and ended up watching the doctor talking personally with some people in front. It's kind of depressing situation where you can only watch and listen, without understanding anything. Wasting of time and energy. That's what I felt. Extreme, isn't it? :)

But since now I'm already in the 'Special Surgery' team, ortho does captured my heart. Thanks to our first day doctor, Prof. Dr. Khaled, the so 'grandfather' like guru, teaching us with patience and smile. Obviously we didn't read before attending the round, but he always brings up some of his amazing story about his experience as an ortho surgeon to make us less confused and stop us from creating our own headache of laziness. It's amazing, and I sometime can lose far far away imagining how exciting his experiences are. He is smart and hardcore. A total hardcore. I love him!

Actually, this 16th of August will be our last day of ortho round, and for sure, I'll miss ortho. The doctors, the air-cond, and the fractured bone pictures. We'll have our end round exam this week, just before holiday of Raya Aidilfitri. X-ray it is, spot diagnosis. Wish us all best of luck! InsyaAllah... :)

"The only source of knowledge is experience"--- Albert Einstein

What makes me happy~

Deena said, “Make a list of three things that makes you happy. “

Why? My main problem is, I usually don’t know what’s the reason behind my smile, or my tears.

Sometimes I tend to laugh out loud at everything, even when my doctors said directly to my face, you don’t study hard enough, I tend to just smile and take it easy bitsy.

Another time, tears of unknown etiology burst out of my eyes. Neither because of chemical trauma like cutting onions, nor emotional trauma like grieving for something loses.

It’s just of unknown etiology. Which lead me to this whole confusion. Why am I being depressed, sad, and down all of sudden? And Deena will be my only choice to talk and cry on the phone. She will be confused as well when she figured out that I don’t have any specific reason to cry. “You must at least know what’s going on in your mind, in order to stop your worries.” (As usual, my rock n roll babe words of wisdom always worked! J )

That’s so right. Knowing what’s in your mind. Knowing everything inside there, will lead you to gain the happiness you’ve ever wanted, and avoid unnecessary sadness that will ruin your whole beautiful day.

So now, I wanted to let you all know, what’s the three reasons that make me being one of those cool, fun, and cheerful girl. That nothing can take my way, even the harshest and most violent words or acts thrown on my face.

1)  Good foods:

Remember my last post about how I really fall in love with variety of foods? Now I know how foods really spiked up my endorphin level. Eating good foods does make my day, even during the worst situation ever. It doesn’t have to be a big feast. It can be done even with just a bar of chocolate, and a glass hot mocha. Or a slice of moist chocolate cake, and fruit salads with hazelnut milkshake. As long as it tastes good, it can make me smile full with satisfaction. Also, cooking and baking can be therapeutic indication for me when I’m tired of reading those meds books. Seeing friends or family enjoying the cake or desert I’m making can take even more pleasure for me.

2)  Travelling:

I love new places, new people, and new environment. Especially those cold winter time, it’s my favorite season of all. Travelling even just for a few kilometers from my home already can make me feel the greatest pleasure out of it. Seeing different new things does educate me a lot. It open my mind about other’s culture, teach me to be more grateful, and appreciation of Allah’s amazing creations. Also, travelling with family does strengthen the bond with each other. We laugh and play like a child together, taking crazy pictures. It’s just fun and worth to remember. One day when I get married, I wanted to take my husband and children to travel to a lot of places whenever us got a chance to do so.

3)  Family:

I’m not yet married, but I do have some ideas about the perfection of imperfect relationship. We often heard in the house, full of frustrations, anger, and sadness. But at the same time, we’ll never forget the moment of laughter shared together in the house. There are no perfect relationships, but it’ll be perfectly awesome when we do our best to keep each other happy. Tolerance + respect. By Allah’s bless, insyaAllah it’ll be perfectly perfect. This is what I learned from my mom and dad. And how I and my bros and sis become much more closer as we grown up.  

So, now that I know what’s really make me happy. And a happy thoughts always ended with a happy ending in everything… Next time, what if we think about what makes us unhappy? It might help us to overcome each somnolence day by knowing the reason.. J

“You’re today where your thoughts have brought you, you will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you.”--- James Allen

Last round~

Another new round in the corner. It's special surgery. If General Surgery used to be my so called 'honeymoon' period, now, special surgery, as special as it's name, is the one I would like to call,
'urgency' period. :)

Here comes the non stop exam round. Here in special surgery, we have 6 subtopics in total. Beginning with Orthopaedic, followed by Urology, Radiology, Anaesthetic, Cardiothoracic, and lastly, Neurosurgery. Too much right? The truth is, it's not that much actually. Each subject consists of brief knowledge only, for our level as undergraduates. But since it's just brief and in a short period of time, everything had to be packed up. Basic knowledge is a must. Attending classes without it, is like watching someone talking in a different languages.
So, read first before each classes. No specific book? Search more on-line article about the surgery, videos. We might not get it as a whole, but catching some terms and ideas does helpful for a better understanding in the round. As all the doctor assumed we already finished the lectures of special surgery, so teaching clinical directly in round is their preferences.

So, what do you waiting for? Pumped up your adrenaline gush! It's time for a new challenge! And insyaAllah will be the last one, before the final year exam. How fast time fly.

Read! Explore! Get yourself activated! Be excited and curious! Feed your brain with this new delicious knowledges! :)

"Cintai ILMU kerana sesungguhnya dari ilmu lahirlah kefahaman. Maka bila kefahaman telah terbentuk manusia tidak akan lari daripada perjuangan."