No time to lose!~

I'm tired. Another 3 days excluding today, and I need to do extra reading to memorize everything. Wish me luck,got to go!~

“Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”

---Mark Victor Hansen quotes

^-^

Why some people are happier than others?~

"Nothing is too small to know, and nothing is too big to attempt."

– William Van Horne

p/s: unrelated image (maybe because I smile when Spongebob smile, and smile wider when he laughs!;p)


Ever wondered that happiness is associated with our genes?

Well, based on the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences, they found that Oxytocin is associated with our personality as the 'always see the bright side' or the one who'd always make friends wherever they go.

Oxytocin:

• also known as love or cuddled hormone
• known to be plentiful during breastfeeding women
• released by men and women during orgasm

This gene have two variants, A and G.

• Those having gene variation of one or two A's: less optimism, mastery, and self-esteem, and more symptoms of depression
• Two G's: you are more likely to see the world, and your role in it in a positive light.

But don't worry as this complex experiment they have done, finally found a conclusion, that this genes is not just 'be-all, end-all'. There are environmental variations role, like how you were raised, your experiences in life.

Dr. Philip D. Harvey, PhD:

"it's complicated. There are genes that influence the way you process emotional information, and this gene affects the way you see the world. But that doesn’t mean you can't change the way you look at the world."

Paul J. Zak, PhD:

"We may not all have the genetic predisposition for happiness and we may not release enough oxytocin. But there are things that we can engage in: whatever helps you connect with others will help you improve your life."

Alan Manevits, MD:

“Just because you have a gene doesn’t mean you are fated to be happy or sad, this speaks to the idea of developing coping mechanisms early."

But ever wonder how they made the test? 326 volunteers answered questions about optimism, self esteem and mastery. Took their saliva, to see the correlations of their genes and this self assessment.

Interesting..:)

p/s: Info from WebMD

Open up~

All these years as a doctor, I have seen many young doctors and even colleagues who resigned and left medical practise. When I ask them why, the answer will always be the same:

- never thought medicine was this though and depressing

- parents wanted me to become a doctor

- thought medicine can make a lot of money

- I thought being a doctor is just sitting in a clinic and see patients.

- got influenced by TV programmes

- thought can cure the patients all the time

--- Dr. Pagalavan Wordpress Blog

I was shocked and confused by those articles posted by Dr. Pagalavan's blog. He talks about those low quality HOs in Malaysia. Those corrupted Russian Medical Student, and us as Egyptian Student who'll be joining this corruption soon.

It's a lot of stories, and I know it's possible, and it's an opinion from a full experienced Rheumatologist, who see and knew what's really going on.

I felt a bit burdened and depressed. And so as my friends whose I've shown this article to. While some of them saying that this is all are made up stories from a 'no good Indian doctor'. A little bit racist maybe?

I'm not saying we should believe this article at 100% cost. But as a doctor to be, I mean, another 1 year to be more precise, don't you think it's a good time for us to open up our mind, look more deeply and widely about those challenges we'll be facing? Well, yes, some of those stories MIGHT be exaggerated. We're 23rd for God sake! Read, then digest. Absorb what you think is right, and excrete those unaccepted. Don't just blindly attack people saying they are a liar. It's just an inappropriate act as a grown up.

Okay, back to the topic. Since I was confused and filled with fears after reading his articles, I post a comment, saying that I'm not a good medical student. And scared if I might becoming one of those HO's he's talking about. I'm posting that comment while I'm in the middle of my "Emotional Driven" mode. Not using my mind wisely, but my emotion. And all I can say now, SO STUPID OF ME. Regret, and ashamed. When the "GOSH" commenter replied mine, I was like, "shame on me!"....

What "GOSH" saying was true. But to be clear, my first comment was all an emotional opinion, which in turn "what am I doing?" result.This is what my cleared mind was really saying:

"Yes, I think it is. But now just realized that it’s just me and my low self esteem. I know I’m better than I think I am.Frankly, I’m really into this medicine field. But too much HO stories, sometimes let us down. Don’t worry, I’ll never let those tax payees down.These articles actually opened my eyes, telling me to do better than ever. It shows me that life as a doctor is not as grandiose as others heard. Harder, than I’ll strive harder, and be among those limited. May God will."

Mode: felt challenged. And I accept the challenge. Great quality HO? Wait for us, insyaAllah.

“Dream the impossible dream, Fight the unbeatable foe, Strive with your last once of courage, To reach the unreachable star.”

Fun surveys~

I had a bad day today. I cried,but I manage to hold it inside. Things might get worse if I do something.

By the way, now I'm halfway to be completely fine. I read cardiology, maybe tonight I'm going to read it all. Another 6 days excluding today. And honestly its kind of depressing actually.

Here's one fun survey I've found somewhere randomly. In case anybody interested in answering, please do so. Let me know so that I can follow up~ :)

my name is: Katidjah Rahim

this morning i was: crying

im afraid of: small weird creatures (insects, spiders, WORMS)

i dream about: me being left behind by my dad, telling me to take another ride, turns out that driver of another car was crazy! he chased me until suddenly I entered someone's house, hiding under the table, the owner of the house trying hard to hide me as well, but finally that crazy scary man found me. Luckily I open my eyes. Exactly at the right time! Huh..

have you ever...

been in love: indeed.

cried when someone died: yes.

lied: yes.. turns out I'm good at it. but I'm on my way to throw it away. +_+

flowers or candy: candy (chocolate preferred..;p)

tall or short: tall.........

with the opposite sex...

what do you notice first?: height?

worst question to ask: is this yours? (obviously it is, and he answered it with +_+" expression)

who...

makes you laugh the most?: my cuzzy Baya

makes you smile: my grandpa

gives you a funny feeling when you see them: Ulfa & Dina

is easier talk to: boys or girls?: boys

do you ever...

sit on the internet waiting for someone special to IM you?: yup!

save AIM conversations?: yup! And I read it again and again with that funny smile on my face.

wish you were a member of the opposite sex?:nope.

cry because of something someone has said: I did. This morning was another episode. +_+"

pray?:everyday. I'm nothing without Allah.

have you ever...

fallen for your best friend?: nope.

rejected someone: kind of.

cheated on someone: yes. (in a regret mode)

been cheated on: yes...

done something you regretted: a lot..

wanted to die: nope. scared to~

who was the last person...

you talked to on the phone: Chaq (while she's still sleeping,sorry chaq)

hugged:my mom

you instant messaged:my sis

you laughed with: Yana

do you...

color your hair: nope.

fight with your parents: nope. is sulking count?

have friends you've lost touch with: yes. Andi. I missed her.

feel happy?: yes.

wish you could fly away.. far, far away?: yes,yes,yes! In those fantasy worlds made by those amazing Disney's artists.

believe in God?: yes indeed. Thank you Allah.

could you live without the computer?: nope. but try to add "High speed wifi", that'll be the one.

what's your favorite candy?: dark chocolate.

whats your favorite fruit?: Honeydew.

sunrise or sunset?: sunset.

what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?: Emo is the one. Unhealthy emo, leads to damaged physical.

trust others way too easily?: yup.

are your fingers cold?: nope.

coke or pepsi: pepsi.

final questions...

I want: money

I wish: I get mumtaz this year.

I love: my family!

I miss: my crazy cuz and sis!

I fear: of getting older.

I hear: Azan Maghrib from nearest mosque.

I smell: my lavender Enchanteur body lotion.

I wonder: will I do it well? (exam fever)

Okies, gtg~ ^-^v

The World's Most shocking X-Rays~

This is today's yahoo's top news. Seriously amazing!

In this undated hand out picture shows an x-ray image of Chen Liu’s skull. Mr Liu’s badly decomposed body was found in marshland, after being shot repeatedly in the head with a high-powered nail gun.

A doctor displays an X-ray of Mohammad Yusuf’s stomach that shows a liquor bottle. Robbers accosted Yusuf, 30, and shoved the bottle up his rectum when he resisted.

An x-ray image of Chinese woman, Luo Cuifen, 29, needles are seen in her body, possibly imbedded under her skin by grandparents trying to kill her so that a baby boy might take her place.

X-ray taken of one of four prisoners at a maximum security prison in Zacatecoluca. Four cellular telephones were found in the intestines of as many prisoners in El Salvador’s maximum-security prison.

An x-ray showing a 17 centimetre (6.7 inches) pair of surgical scissors in the abdomen of 69-year-old Pat Skinner.Mrs Skinner had an operation at St.George hospital in Sydney’s south in May 2001, but continued to suffer intense pain and it was only when she insisted on an x-ray 18 months later that she discovered the scissors inside.

Facts sometimes have a strange and bizarre power that makes their inherent truth seem unbelievable.

---Werner Herzog

Pray for them~

I kept thinking about our brothers and sisters outside there, who cannot eat and sleep comfortably in their own land. Guns hold upon their head when they tries to walk freely on their own soil. Treated like a foreigner by those foreigners. Accused for doing things they had never done.

Let us all pray for them. We can't be there. But may our pray will change something. Maybe not now, maybe in the future, or maybe at the end of the world. Maybe this is one of the signs that we're nearer to the end of the world.

Help them, pray for them.

My Obsession: F.O.O.D.S~

Wagamama, City Star, Cairo, Egypt: It's a Japanese Food Restaurant.

Fish & Chips, German (Trust me, don't even try a bite of you are on a diet! Irresistible taste!)

Somewhere in Brussels. Buy 1 free 1 Fillet Burger. Delicious!

Arabic Foods, near Friend's Hostel, Paris

Fritz: It's a famous fries in Holland. Big fries, here I sip it with Peanut Sauce.

Buffet in Abu Dhabi's Hotel. It's mine, Dina's & Ulfa's.

7 Days Pizza, Zaqaziq, Egypt.

Meet Egyptian Foods! I know, seems a lil' bit...

Our lunch during Sakkara trip in Egypt. It's Kuftah (mashed meat) inside Eesh Baladi( Egyptian Bread)

Kribs, the reason why people come to Zaqaziq Egypt (Originally from France)

Meals of Casper, Zaqaziq (no longer on service)

Fruit Custard, BBQ Zaqaziq

Also BBQ Zaqaziq (Basmati rice with crushed nuts on top)

“When you wake up in the morning, Pooh,’ said Piglet at last, ‘what’s the first thing you say to yourself?’ ‘What’s for breakfast?’ said Pooh. ‘What do you say, Piglet?’ ‘I say, I wonder what’s going to happen exciting today?’ said Piglet. Pooh nodded thoughtfully. ‘It’s the same thing,’ he said.”

- A. A. Milne, ‘The House at Pooh Corner’

Bits of piece of my Come True'd' dream~

Brussels: Where there's snow, there'll be my name on it!

Somewhere in German: me and ulfa

Memorials Of Jews, German

German

Brussels: Manneken Pis (actually behind us is a doll of a boy peeing into the pool)

Madamme Tussaud, London (Princess Diana's)

London Eye

Standing on London Bridge, you can see London Tower behind.

I 'AM'STERDAM

Amsterdam

Somewhere in Amsterdam

Disneyland Paris
Disneyland Paris

Eiffel Tower, Paris

Eiffel Tower, Paris from far.

“The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page.”

– St. Augustine

“The use of traveling is to regulate imagination by reality, and instead of thinking how things may be, to see them as they are.”

– Samuel Johnson

“People travel to faraway places to watch, in fascination, the kind of people they ignore at home.” – Dagobert D. Runes

“No one realizes how beautiful it is to travel until he comes home and rests his head on his old, familiar pillow.”

– Lin Yutang

Lastly, my favourite travel quotes of all:

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

– Mark Twain

I'm gonna travel around the world someday. And I know that 'SOMEDAY' will come. It's my dream, and it'll come true. May God's Will...

p/s: quotes from

Metador Networks

Bored~

Mode: Bored, blank, tired.

So, suddenly the idea to cut off the boredom by uploading some of these oldies pictures with my besties.

Shopping in City Star, Cairo. The only place where you can feel the real joyousness of window shopping.

BTW, that'll be our last Starbucks, since JAKIM already declared that it was not Halal... True or not, if it involved doubtfulness, then it's a NO.

And yes, I'm so in love with high heels, but being 170 cm female... Hurm...

Maybe someday, where people around taller than me. German maybe?

Mode: Re-schedule~

" A certain amount of stress and anxiety can help to provide the motivational drive, attentional focus, and state of readiness to respond to challenging situation. Such benefits may explain why so many people report doing their best work under deadline or other form of pressure."

--- The globe and mail

Taking too much time adjusting my study schedule. A bit of stress and feared totally worked on me. A slight activation of my sympathetic system, a little bit increase of my cortisol... It worked I think.

This year, I spend half of my time trying to find the inner peace inside of me. I practised Yoga, some meditation. I search blogs about stress management, how to handle bad relationships.. And I think I've succeed. Yes, I think so.

But being too calm in this type of situation, I mean, EXAM, isn't it a little bit...hurmm... Okay, adrenaline, cortisol, you guys can come out now.. Just for this exam fever round, Okay?

Aidilfitri in Egypt 2011~

Pieces of Aidilfitri in Zaqaziq and Cairo. Not too much image showing Egyptian way of celebrating raya. It's us after praying Sunat Raya Aidilfitri at Zaqaziq Stadium. We pray on the greens. With Egyptian. On our way entering the stadium, the feelings like we're in the middle of Demonstration in Tahrir.

Maybe next year I'll snap a lot more pictures after getting my own Canon. Hope so.