Random thoughts~

Twirling my headphone wire, humming along with Clazziquai Project's song that I'm listening to, sipping my hot hot mocha drink, absorbing myself into my amazing tasty Galaxy Chocolate Hazelnuts bar...aaah..How can I be thankful enough to those who created coffee and chocolate..

It was 2.30 in the morning. I woke up early lately. Not because of the exam fever campaign. Na ah. But thanks to my alteration of biological clock, now my brain commending me to fall asleep exactly at 8 pm, everyday. And as for me, 6 hours of high quality bed rest was enough to wake me up at 2 am, not even by the roaring of my alarm. :)

Sitting alone in the middle of this early morning, just me. I read my General Surgery book, volume 2, with passion. Only accompanied by the sound of cat fighting at the ground floor, and with the dim of light from my table lamp, I was able to enjoy my reading. Hundred percent of concentration might not be achieved, but I just love this miracle loneliness. A feeling of loneliness that you can actually enjoy. 

Final examination is just around the corner. Day by day, I can see the shadow of tension and awkwardness between us. Everyone is struggling. And I'm not excluded. It is our final year, and all of us were striving hard enough to reach for the best. We are all big enough to act smart, rather than unnecessary unhealthy tension for bad competition. We were all putting ourself more on improving ourself, our results, and our way of studying, rather than comparing with each other to stand out within the crowd. Nope. Not anymore. :)

That's it. It's random. I know. But looking at the calendar, showing me, that we are already approaching winter season, and of course, insyaAllah, to be our last winter here, I just feels like posting today. 

6 years here. Can you imagine? It's already creeping to the end. How time flies so fast. And I just love how living in foreign country really thought me a lot. From managing my inner self, to properly manage my outside appearance. I found my inner peace. I begin to practice inner peace meditation. I know how to appreciate things we already have, and not depressing myself in order to get things that I wish I have. Because I just knew, gratitude will always be followed by dream come true surprises. I just knew, because it happen to me, almost everyday. Alhamdulillah..

Let us all enjoy the present moment. Forget about other's judgement. It's their problem. Not us. Focus on what makes you happy. Volla~  <3

^^

 “Don’t postpone joy until you have learned all of your lessons. Joy is your lesson.” 

~Alan Cohen

Lastly, enjoy this soothing Clazziquai song~ :)

Time to act~

Now. My mind kept telling me, NOW. 

But my body? NO.

Ugh! Final exam is just around the corner. In less than 2 months! Yes. And my study? Nadah! Slow motion, slower than the snail that carrying miracidia of schistosoma in their body. How can I be so slow? I want the old me! Fast, active, exciting! Where is me? Come back home now please! I need you!

I gotta start. No more procrastinating. Enough honeymoon dear. Time to act. Remember? Mumtaz is waiting. Bi iznillah. Aamiin.

"Don't take rest after your first victory. Because if you fail in second, more lips are waiting to say, that first victory was just luck. "--- Anonymous