Disoriented~

I was helpless last night.It was hectic,and I surrender.In the middle of the corner around my last paper for this final exam,I let myself drowned by this uncertainty.Don't know why during the peak of my study?Why during the most 'you better not waste your time' moment, it appear out of nowhere,asking me to think,think, and think.And thanks,in the end,I lose and I did what I shouldn't do.

It hurts like someone stabbed the knife directly to my chest.It hurts so much that I can't bear to pull myself together ignoring it for a while.I can't breath properly and it annoyed me.Too much thoughts.Till me neither can't choose which one is the truth,and which one is the result from my overused instinct.

Oh Allah,help Your helpless slave.I really need You.Please blow away all this bad feelings,all this uncertainty.Please show me which way should I choose.Please show me which one is my best pathway to go on.Allahu Ya Rabb.Help me..

Today will be the last day before our second paper of ObGyn.Alhamdulillah the first one goes smoothly as I wanted it to be.Alhamdulillah.Now the second,and I will try my best to let it pass smoothly.It's short notes and MCQ. Hundred of MCQ.

Allah,help me to focus on my study today.Don't let me waste anytime You've gifted.Help me Ya Allah.Lighten this heart to gain more knowledges, and clean it from any dirtiness.Amin..