I'm still abroad~

"Goodbye England".

I saw his wall post just now. I smile. Funny though. I'm just like him. Oversea's student. A child that gone through wide several seas (by flight I mean), to study. And of course, to see things beyond the edges. He was the first. And now he's back. After about 10 years, the first villager of mine finally back home. He lives in England almost 10 years. Haven't gone back to homeland, not even once. Finally he's back. And he was worried. About the weather, the changes he might face. And of course, he's lost father while he is still abroad.

See how strong he is, made me feel so small and nothing. 6 years is nothing compared to him. And still, I'm complaining a lot about being away from home, missing family and so on. He's finally back and a lot of people greet him. Can't wait to see him. To see the 'after 10 years no see' face. Me? Another year, and I'm back. Well, nothing to tell right? I'm home? I am home at every year since my first year here. Well, one thing for sure now, I'm still abroad.

The point is, finally I do feel the regret of not trying to find as much experiences I should have. It's my final chance to explore the feelings of holidaying abroad.

Huh~ Finally I find the ease I was looking for. Feeling sorry for myself not being able to join the others to fly back home this year. It's finally gone. Ermm. Not really gone. But a little bit gone I think.

Well then, another 2 sessions of exams. And yes, I do feel sad about my yesterday's paper. Hormonal? No. No excuse. It's just myself being too lazy to do my best. In my face! Rebound phenomena! Come out now~

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"Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from."

---Al Franken

Nerve wrecker ~

Dr. Pagalavan-The storm is coming

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Enough to shack your mind, isn't it? Less on call, less overworking hours, more productive HOs. But does 'shift system' really worked to produce high quality doctors? Although quantity already been a big issue lately, now the quality seems to be another highlights to talk about. I am still a student, but sooner, I'll graduates and go back home to work. Hurmm... Seems like the challenges waiting rose up more. Prepare yourself. Be this harder challenges as a stepping stone to reach higher than expected.

“Courage is one step ahead of fear.”

---Coleman Young

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Smile~

Life will always be like this. There'll be no happily ever after. Upside down it is. Just like the wheel. There are times when we are ups, and sometimes, we were unconsciously deep inside the bottom. There's no way we can run away from the truth, the fact. For sure it does happen, and will be. All we have to do now, is just, face it, take it as easy as it should be. Realizing that everything was temporary, and fixable. Be brave, stand up, fight! Learn to identify each situation, especially the bad one. Stop running away, and learn to fix it. For me, the most beautiful moment, was when I get to solve something, the harder it getting my way, the more precious it become. See? God created this life to be that beautiful, it depends on us to appreciate it by acting the way we should be. Be wiser, think further, be happier~

"The reason why worry kills more people than work is that more people worry than work"

---Unknown Author

Struggle~

“Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets.”

--- Unknown Author

I used to be like this and that. There's too much bad habits to be listed down here, but for sure, it does present, and was, and some still is. I can't directly type down the point I'm talking about, but I'm sure some of those out there already knew what kind of struggle I've been involved during these previous years. Fighting with your own body, your own soul, is the hardest war ever.

I've improved. From my stand point here, I do improved. A lot. Maybe others still looking at me like I'm some kind of a freak, who's still caught in my own past stories. And I admit that I am still in there, part of me still inside there, trying my best to fix things up, to let everything go, let it stay there, to lighten the loads, so that I can keep walking forward smoothly. I'm tired, and only God know how tiresome it is to face the facts. Karma do happen. And everything I'm facing right now is Karma, from my past mistakes, now it's my turn.

All I can really do right now, is be patience. Allah is always be there, watching. I knew He loves me. Wanted me to be stronger. Maybe it's a little progress, but at least it's a positive progress. And I'll keep trying.

Somebody once said "the biggest room in the world is the room for improvement." Make room in your life for improvement. And if you think you are already very good, look closely. You might still want to tweak a few things to make you better.

Another 9 days to go. Cortisol, come out, come out wherever you are~

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Random pieces~

Credit to Khansa for these amazing pictures~

I was suppose to upload these pictures into my facebook account. But here they are now! ;p

Hurmm... Imagine the feeling of leaving Egypt. Am I being way too early to have this feeling? Yeah, how I wish time will fly faster, so that I can go back to my homeland, work, work, more excellent work...

"We do not remember days; we remember moments."

~Cesare Pavese

p/s: Paeds... Be my friend please?

Refreshing~

These past few days were just as dull as the weather did. It's winter and the sun seems a little bit shy to expose itself. Sometimes hot, another time, it's freaking cold. The perfect time to catch cold. So everyone, get yourself up, move more, sweat your toxins out of your lazy body, be more energetic and of course, take out all those thicker clothes and socks. Take care of your only place to live, which is, your body.

Healthy mind equal to youthful body. I had a bad hair day during these past few days. Winter do damage your hair without hair serum. But nope. It's not about my hair. And I didn't blame the weather this time. It's me. Who forgot to get a perfect rest after those long tiresome exams. I go to Cairo straight away after the exam. And the day after, I begin to sleep 5 hours sharp as usual, starting my engine for the next exam. Without realizing that I've forgot to refill the gas. It's an engine with drops of leftover gas. What a waste.

So, I'm now trying my best to get my perfect rest as others did. My poor body and mind, they do feel tired. Too much work last time huh? Okay, relax and refresh. Another 3 sessions of exams, and poof! It's holiday. Short but hope it'll be meaningful. Planning to attend attachment here in Egypt. May God's Will.

Okay, good luck all~

And yes, happy winter! Did I mention how much I love winter than summer? Finally!

"And although I like to relax and have fun, my passion is my work."

---Benjamin Cohen

Workaholic with joy~

This is all I can think about. My future. About me being a doctor to-be (by Allah's will). I'm a 'workaholic to-be'. That's what my friend called me. "You're a study-holic now," that's what they replied when I ask them why they called me that.

I'm really into this medicine world now. My keen to explore the world of medicine is beyond my expectations as before. I'm really in love with it. Maybe a little bit delayed, but 5th year really does changed my heart, my attention. I love medicine. Everything have it's own mysteries. Everything need to be explored. And the answer is the real satisfaction you'll ever had.

I spent my previous years with worries. Thinking about how my life will turn out to be if I keep doing things I'm not really into it. That's the old episodes of me being a blind girl, didn't realize that medicine is just superior amazing than others.

Finally I found the real joy of doing something I really love. No tiredness, nor boredom. See? Allah do watching. Alhamdulillah.

"You'll find the light at the end of the tunnel, so long if you keep moving forward, with passion and patience."