Alhamdulillah~

Hellopzz!It's been a long time right? Two months passed, and I still don't have any interesting thing to share here. But realizing my so lagged post updates, I decided to share my random thoughts here.

Right now, I'm in exam mode. My end round OBGYN exam is just around the corner, and yet, I'm not even 80% ready for it. Why? Not to blame others, except of course, me. My mind already preoccupied by other thing.

The smile that can change my bad day
 to the greatest one.

What is it? It's my father. Been diagnosed as thyrotoxic patient since the last 7 months. I was shocked. Not to mention my mom. But known as an 'iron-faced' lady, I try my best to act cool as if it's just a simple noodle case, nothing to worry about. But deep inside, everyone was struggling. It's hard you know. I learn a lot about thyroid diseases. I remember every details clearly, as for me, endocrine is a super exciting subject to read. But who knew, it just happen.

Months of worries finally ended. Today, my father undergo total thyroidectomy, which is after hours of discussion with my brother, which one to do. Simple lobectomy, partial or total thyroidectomy? We discuss everything thoroughly, each advantage and risks. And that's it. I say, total it is! Hours of restlessness finally paid up, for good. I received the greatest news ever from Nana, my bro's girl, saying my dad's operation already done, and he already awake and talk normally. That moment, only Allah knew. I cried so hard, harder than before he was operated. Thank you Allah!

So now, I can deviate my mind back to my OBGYN books. Few days more. All I can do is to read as much as I can. Allah love His slave who tried hard, who never say "I can't" before timed. I'll just do my best! It's a small exam, but as we all know, in medicine, each mark brings big effect towards our final result. :)

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah. Syukur ke hadrat Ilahi~

Mode: Let's read! :)) Good luck all~

Hello Sabah!

I'm back to malaysia! Finalleh!
I was an inch beyond my "lively corpse" period, and poof! Finally I decided to go back to my "homesick caller" homeland. I miss my family so much, I can't wait to fly this Monday night! Wohooo!
Talking about how excited I am right now, I'm a little bit worried about our becoming adventure. Yesterday, and the night before yesterday, I mean, the situation was tensed. Blame Air Asia and MAS flight! Well, of course it might be my fault in the first place, sudden decision to go home during this super busy full holiday where everyone is flying home to celebrate Christmas Day. Yey to them! And of course, woes to me. Hurmm.
After a long long tiresome day in front of my laptop and talking on my phone, till at time, the battery might just explodes because of the long long discussion about our tickets, and yeah, finally me and Maya decided to take the flight back to Kota Kinabalu through Labuan. And yes, Labuan means, ferry! And yes, ferry during this monsoon? Allah please protect us from all those negative unwanted possibilities.
Anyway, the most important thing of course for us to land safely. And that indeed need prays. May Allah guide us, protect us from any unwanted harm along our way home. Amin.

p/s:too much foods already floating in my mind! Malaysian foods! Wait for me!

It is not always about you~

I've found this amazing article. Guilty, scared.. Everything! I'm a daughter, a woman. I always tell people around me, "Mind your own business, then I'll watch mine". But now I realized, it's not just about me. What I do, how I act, my way of thinking, my appearance. It's not just about me.

As a muslim, it is a must for us to believe in the hereafter. It is the afterlife, where all we've done during our life, determine whether we'll be going to Heaven or Hell.

Here, I wanted to share about men. We all know that women will be majority in Hell, as they're easily committed sins. But what about men? Here I shared this article for us to think. Wallahualam~

Di akhirat nanti ada 4 golongan lelaki yang akan ditarik masuk ke neraka oleh wanita. Lelaki itu adalah mereka yang tidak memberikan hak kepada wanita dan tidak menjaga

amanah itu. Mereka ialah:

1. Ayahnya

Apabila seseorang yang bergelar ayah tidak mempedulikan anak-anak perempuannya didunia. Dia tidak memberikan segala keperluan agama seperti mengajar solat,mengaji dan sebagainya. Dia membiarkan anak perempuannya tidak menutup aurat. Maka dia akan ditarik ke neraka oleh anaknya.

"Duhai lelaki yang bergelar ayah, bagaimanakah hal keadaan anak perempuanmu sekarang?. Adakah kau mengajarnya bersolat & puasa?..menutup aurat?.. pengetahuan agama?.. Jika tidak cukup salah satunya, maka bersedialah untuk menjadi bahan bakar neraka jahannam."

2. Suaminya

Apabila sang suami tidak mempedulikan tindak tanduk isterinya. Bergaul bebas di pejabat, memperhiaskan diri bukan untuk suami tapi untuk pandangan kaum lelaki yang bukan mahram. Apabila suami mendiam diri walaupun seorang yang alim dimana solatnya tidak pernah bertangguh, puasanya tidak tinggal, maka dia akan turut ditarik oleh isterinya bersama-sama ke dalam neraka.

"Duhai lelaki bergelar suami, bagaimanakah hal keadaan isteri tercintamu sekarang?. Dimanakah dia? Bagaimana akhlaknya? Jika tidak kau menjaganya mengikut ketetapan syari'at, maka terimalah hakikat yang kau akan sehidup semati bersamanya di 'taman' neraka sana"

3. Abang-abangnya

Apabila ayahnya sudah tiada, tanggungjawab menjaga maruah wanita jatuh ke bahu abang-abangnya dan saudara lelakinya. Jikalau mereka hanya mementingkan keluarganya sahaja dan adiknya dibiar melencong dari ajaran Islam,tunggulah tarikan adiknya di akhirat kelak.

"Duhai lelaki yg mempunyai adik perempuan, jangan hanya menjaga amalmu, dan jangan ingat kau terlepas... kau juga akan dipertanggungjawabkan diakhirat kelak...jika membiarkan adikmu bergelumang dengan maksiat... dan tidak menutup aurat"

4. Anak-anak lelakinya

Apabila seorang anak tidak menasihati seorang ibu perihal kelakuan yang haram disisi Islam. bila ibu membuat kemungkaran mengumpat, memfitnah, mengata dan sebagainya...maka anak itu akan disoal dan dipertanggungjawabkan di akhirat kelak....dan nantikan tarikan ibunya ke neraka.

"Duhai anak2 lelaki.... sayangilah ibumu.... nasihatilah dia jika tersalah atau terlupa.... kerana ibu juga insan biasa... tidak lepas dari melakukan dosa... selamatkanlah dia dari menjadi 'kayu api' neraka....jika tidak, kau juga akan ditarik menjadi penemannya."

Hurmm...It's also about my father, brothers.. :(