Showing posts with label better muslimah. Show all posts
Showing posts with label better muslimah. Show all posts

Monday, 12 August 2013

Muflis akhirat ~

Bismillah..

Masih bernafas di bulan syawal. Allah beri kesempatan terus beramal di bulan kemenangan.. insyaAllah setiap detik kurniaanNya, diisi dengan manfaat akhirat..

Bila berkumpul sesama saudara, sahabat handai, macam- macam karenah kita nampak.. yang cantik, alhamdulillah..jadikan ikutan.Tapi yang kurang indah dipandangan, jadikan teladan dan peringatan..

Saya lihat, mainan lidah memang merisaukan. Mengumpat, menghina, mencaci.. lembutnya lidah, tapi tajamnya jangan dipandang remeh. Kerana lidah juga, mampu merosakkan amal baik kita selama ini..

Sabda Rasulullah SAW :
"Siapa yang muflis? Mereka yang muflis itu bukanlah yang tidak memiliki harta atau tempat tinggal. Sesungguhnya mereka yang muflis itu adalah orang yang tidak menunaikan hak orang lain, seperti mencaci dan merampas harta tanpa hak, memukul tanpa sebab dan sebagainya."
-Riwayat Muslim.

Nauzubillah.. sebenarnya, golongan yang muflis di akhirat asalnya banyak pahalanya. Banyak amalnya. Tapi dalam masa yang sama, dia buat kejahatan terhadap manusia yang lain.. menzalimi mereka, tidak menunaikan hak mereka, mengumpat memfitnah mereka..

Di akhirat nanti, tidak ada lagi wang ringgit jadi tebusan. Pahala kita diambil menggantikan kejahatan terhadap hambaNya yang lain, kalau pahala itu tidak memadai, kejahatan orang itu akan diletakkan ke atas kita. Cantik kan balasan Allah? Adil, saksama. Tidak ada cacat celanya.

Di sini, dosa yang paling banyak melibatkan hak orang lain, adalah lidah. Dosa lidah boleh menyebabkan orang yang kaya amalan baiknya, jadi miskin papa di akhirat kelak. Merayu belas kasihan orang lain nanti, sudah cukup terlambat. Balasan akhirat yang perit menanti..

Apabila kita manabur fitnah, mangadu domba, mengumpat, mainan dosa lidah ini wajib ditebus dengan orang yang terlibat.. minta maaf, mohon redhanya. Kalau tidak sempat akibat dijemput malaikat maut, maka pahala di akhirat nanti jadi tebusan. Rugi, teramat rugi.

Dunia semakin tua. Tanda- tanda akhir zaman semakin banyak dan jelas. Kenapa masih lalai dibuai mainan dunia? Sedangkan akhirat bakal menjemput tidak lama lagi. Wallahualam. Dia Yang Maha Mengetahui apa di hadapan kita.

Imam al Ghazali pernah berkata, "dari lidah akan berlakulah pendustaan atau pembohongan, buruk sangka, permusuhan, fitnah, mencarut, mencela, mengutuk, bertelingkah, mengumpat, melaknat, dan membicarakan sesuatu dengan cara yang kesat, kasar dan penuh dengan kesombongan."

Astaghfirullah. Diri sendiri banyak melakukan dosa lidah. Sedar atau tidak, sengaja atau tidak, memang bertimbun dosa yang sedia ada. Apatah lagi mahu menebus dosa terhadap orang lain. Ya Allah, layakkah aku mencium bau syurgaMu? Ampuni hambaMu yang hina ini Ya Rabb..

Banyak cakap, banyaklah celanya. Sebab itu kita disaran berdiam diri, jikalau tidak ada perkataan yang baik mahu diperkatakan. Diam itu lebih baik..

Minta Allah pelihara kita semua. Bila- bila masa ajal boleh menjemput. Ingatlah, tidak ada dalam al quran menyebut orang muda takkan mati.. Taubat, kembali ke jalan Nya. Allah sayang.. selagi berkesempatan, bersihkan hati dan jasad dari noda mainan dunia. Ingat akhirat. Ingat mati.

Jom sama- sama perbaiki diri.. Bismillah..

Monday, 5 August 2013

Different pathway~

I do had a second thought. Not once, but many times. I told myself that life ain't as fair as it should be.

Life is hard. Tough. Only those who is strong enough can survive. I've been through a lot. Too much, non stop. And to be honest, this isn't the kind of life I've dreamed of.

I wanted it to be simpler, easier, and clearer. Get my medical grades, get a job, work my ass off to the best, find my true love, get married, and focus on being a good wife and mom, and a great doctor. Ease enough.

But Allah had granted me a far much different pathway. Completely different. Too much painful and tiresome obstacles. Why me? Maybe I'm one of those strong candidates that seem stronger enough to break the hardest wall. But to be honest, I am not strong. I'm weak, fragile. Easily gave up.

But who am I to questioned Allah's plan? For sure He knew what's best for me. Maybe this is the moment, where I need to bounce myself back up after the hardest fall. All I need to do is just turn myself into the right material. To bounce higher then other's expectations.

I need to be stronger. I need to practice bigger patience. And most important, I need to stop comparing my life with others. Seeing their perfectly happy life, makes me hate my life even more. Regrets and questions. Too much and adding an extra burden over my chest. Maybe, they already had those painful and hard moment in their life. And they've got through it successfully. So now it's their time to savour the sweetness of their life.

My time will come. I strongly believed it will. Sooner. Just be stronger, patient, and have faith. Allah always watching. Just have faith. Life might seem not fair enough, but who know this path was made to create a better version of me. I hope.

Heart, keep calm. Just move on. I chose to stay on this road, this pathway. I do saw some other better options, but I choose to stay here. I believe, it will bring me to a better life forward. All I need to do is just keep moving forward, no more turning back, no more regrets and hesitation. Just move on.

Don't underestimate others life. Everyone had their toughest moment. The difference is, how they able to get through it.

Life is hard. I know..

Tuesday, 16 July 2013

Acceptance ~

I remember of having a killing desire of  being more stylish and elegant. Putting it into one simple sentence, I wanted to fit it.

Each kids had this kind of desire. Well I might be a little bit late of outgrowing it since I don't really have this self conscious mind during my school days. It had only come when I started to live in a new places, meeting new people, and discovered the addiction of holding the center of attention title.

I' ve tried a lot of changes. A lot. It's fun for a while. Until then I just realized, that's not who I am. It's tiresome, bothersome, trying hard to fit in beside the fact that you don't really felt the pure comfort of being it. I've tried a lot of different shoes and none of them makes me feel genuine at all.

When I started to be myself, I feel free and honest. Accepting who we are, our flows and all, given us a chance to be more open to every part of ourselves. At the same time, we'll be able to see what serve us and what's not. Whilst you will realize that at some point, this true self is the one that helped us grow and survive.

Now I'm setting my own boundaries. Like a home within me. Where I feel secured and comfortable. I wanted to fit in my own home, not other's.

With more understanding and acceptance to ourselves, come compassion. I can be a better friend, and attracting more compassionate people in return.

You know when you hear the saying, 'You can't love anyone until you love yourself' ? Well indeed, that's true. ♥♥

Thursday, 11 July 2013

Those valuable challenges~

Most of us grown up with the fantasies of fairytales. Cinderella, snow white, sleeping beauty, repunzel and etc. And that's the way we look this life is. Everything we do, we will put on high expectation of grabbing the  'happily ever after'  version of ending. We all did.
But life doesn't turned out to be that way. As an adult version of me, I learned to except the pain and bitterness in life. I dare myself to opened up with bigger and wider challenges in order to see the ugly side of me. Living full of cover up isn't as beautiful as I wished it to be. Limiting a lot of actions does limiting my joy of experiencing my real life.
Years of swimming through those hard rivers. I wanted to be perfect. And so I muscled up my way to reach an excellent achievement in study, and buckled up my tired body to find a perfect relationship. For me, this is the real satisfaction in life.
But it was all crap. Big old crap that trapped inside the perfectionist me.
I passed the episode of hitting the bottom of excellency. I failed. I lost. I cried and almost lose it all.
I had those painful broke up. And that's the toughest moment ever. I just closed my heart and let it dies slowly inside.
But you know what? This bunches of painful tears and unheard screams are the things that opened myself up. It let me digged out all the ugliness inside me. The side that I tried hard to cover up all these years. Anger, sadness, low self esteem, insecure. All if it.
Now I'm a woman who daresay that I already had those painful moments. And I passed. And I'm proudly said I am stronger, even created the better version of me. I told myself, I'll just follow the flow. The hard flow of the river, to see the other side that surely will be far more amazing than now. And yes. I feel better and fabulous.
Here to say, open yourself up for more challenges. Ready to take those scary but excited journey. The harder it seems, the more rewards will come. As the easy path usually comes with an easy rewards. Move your ass up and ride the longest roaller coaster. Feel the excitement of rolling yourself up and down the railway. You will feel awesome and yet, you will ask for more!
♥♥

Friday, 5 July 2013

25th years old me~

Alhamdulillah..

25 years old me! Yes, not a teen anymore. An adult, who is approaching her work field sooner! Yey! A doctor? Really? Am I worth it? Will try my best to be the best I can.. Allah had granted me such an honour to help my dearest muslim and muslimah fellows, and I promised to strive hard to do it. IAllah, may Allah help me.. :)

This year, more and more blesses I got from Him.. a big thankful towards Allah.. felt small and undeserved, Allah showed His love by continuously blessing me with happiness.. Syukur..

I'm happy with my loving family, who always makes me feel better, makes me laugh and smile.. always pick me up whenever I fall.. Friends whom always be there whenever I need them, when I cried they came even I didn't ask them to, shared my tears of happiness, who motivate me to be the best like I am today..

And thank you Allah for letting me meet a man that always makes me smile, laugh, comfortable, warmth.. a man that always remind me to feel worth and to love myself.. the one who reminded me to be a humble and better muslimah.. a man that thaught me about pure love and understanding.. dear Fauzi, thanks for all your patience and love.. <3

I had a lot in mind. Expectations and hopes in this new years of mine. Thank you for all your heartwarming wishes through sms, twitter, facebook, wechat, line, and etc.. hehe.. may Allah always be with you girls and guys..

Let us all strive to be better year by year. Towards Jannah iAllah amin.. ^^

P.S. I made ayam percik for my special day.. cakes? On the making! Cupcakes chocolate cheese! Yummeh!

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