First exam~

Hello! Yes. I know. It's been a long time. I was stuck inside my hectic schedule plan. What's with the sudden comeback? Well, it'll be for sure, about the exam. Yes, our General Surgery examination will be held this Saturday, 5th of May. Seems like a lucky number, isn't it? Hope to be as lucky as it seems. Full mark for all of us, insyaAllah. I was just wondering. How's the feeling of having another exam after the previous glorious year of mine. I was sitting comfortably and smiled when doctor Tarek (our coordinator) speaking about the exam. Although it'll be earlier than what've been told before, I still smile and accept it smoothly. Not that I'm sure I can answer everything perfectly. Also not because I'm 100% ready. And I know no one will be. But what's the use of being panicky and depressed? The thing is, it's just a super small exam, and just another step to evaluate our understanding this far of extend. If we are to talk about final exam, then yes. Panic is allowed. I do have the persistent thought about my ability to stay among the top in term of result. Or not. Nobody know. My father once told me. There's no other way other than trying to do your best in everything. Expectation is a must. And of course, expect beyond. That's the power stone to jump up higher. But that is not a good excuse for you to say you are depressed, scared. No. Don't give even a tiny chance for them to come inside you. Or even passing upon you. There will disabling you. Just, be braver. Yes! Come on. We're 6th year for God sake. I know I may not as brave as others who can talk out loud in classes. But at least, scared of exam? Yeah, it's our nature as a student to be scared. But to some extend, inviting tension and depression? Panic? Nope. Don't come around me, or else, you'll be more depressed by my 'uh-oh' face. No dear. Remember, life needs to be touched. Not strangled. Be nice to yourself. What's the use of success, that one moment success, with miserable along the far road? Life isn't that long. Filled it with happiness and joys as much as we could. Chill~ :) And good luck for the becoming exam, my friends!

I miss them already!!

OMG!OMG!

What I do really feel right now? I missed handballers!! All of them! Like, seriously! I love them! The team spirit!! OMG! All the tiresome training. It's all forgotten. I really enjoyed today's game! Seriously!

For the first time, I joined two team simultaneously. It was fun. At first, I thought it might kill me from exhaustion. But really! It didn't! Maybe my stamina does improved a little bit from my weight loss. But I really enjoyed this game! No pressure, no tension. Everything seems fun and enjoyable. I run back and forth, being a defender, and at the same time, helping the striker. The rush of adrenaline totally fun and great!

One thing for sure, this program do successfully achieved one of their objectives. Which is, strengthen our UKHWAH.

I already missed my fellow handballers, both team. Training together everyday, with those tired body from classes, but still, we got to laugh and joking about a lot of things. We do have some misunderstanding. But that's what makes us tied more with each other. The support, the cheers, everything! I love them all!!! Aaahh..how I wish I can still play handball with them sometime.

For the record. This cheers were made by handball team.. ;p

"We are ZAGZIG! We are ONE! We are CHAMPION!!!"

Okay, enough TJ. Tomorrow, starting of my ordinary life as a student. It's slow, but yeah, that's why I come to Egypt. LEARN. :)

What a waste~

10th of March 2012. It's Saturday. And finally tomorrow, another long week of classes will begin. It's the day I've waiting for. Honestly. I prefer the one day holiday rather than these two days of doing nothing and filled with boredom. It's just plain and empty. I was sitting in my room for the whole day, doing nothing. I eat, then I sleep. It's a cruel cycle to be repeated every week.

Nowadays, I do realized the fact that I'm so not that thankful ladies is. People asked for holidays. And two days holidays was like a heaven for them. While me? I'm so not in love with this slow and long day of laziness. Everything seems slow and weak. I wanted something that's challenging my youthful energy. I wanted to keep busy doing things. Nagging about how exhausted it is for doing things. Not this tiredness of doing nothing.

Today, I didn't read. Same goes to yesterday. I should have read. But I didn't. Two days holidays, and I didn't even study anything. What a waste. And what a big grave regret I felt!

Well, it's a relieve. At least I finally realized it. Tomorrow another beautiful day is waiting. And I'll make my day worth to remember. I'll make everyday as the best day of the year for me! I'm not gonna waste it for nothing.

Be wiser, be happier. Good luck for me~ :)

Focus~

I'm tired. Using too much thought and thinking today. It's just too much I can't even find the answers that I'm looking for. 26th of February 2012, it's just me, doing things I shouldn't have done. But in the end, I did it. And now I'm covered with regrets and angers.

I need me. The one who were supposed to know how to think before act. The one who can see things beyond everything. The one who always consider consequences rather than temporary satisfaction. The only one who can control and love my mind, body, and soul.

I need to empower myself back on track. I'm way too far from the path I could've been taken. But I'm sure, it's never too late to get back on track. Stop putting yourself into too much unnecessary attentions. Believe in yourself. Focus on your goal. Focus on the result. Remember, follow your plan with full of disciplines and determination. Nothing is impossible.

Focus, determined, discipline.

Take it easy~

Two days classes, and I'm still floating in the air, still don't have the urge to put my feet on the ground, to walk towards the pathway I've been planning about for this final year of mine. There are times when it feels like I'm not really trying my best to start over. Am I too lazy, or this is just a normal starter?

My father used to said, "regret for wasted time, is more wasted time". That's completely true. I keep thinking about how should I perform during classes, what exactly should I do when I'm alone. I've already pushed myself too hard, and I ended up doing nothing.

I just realized this morning. I should take it easy. Because for sure, by time, I'll start to get everything, slowly, one by one. I need to relax. Relaxing my mind, body, and soul. My body has it own capacity. And so my mind. I need them to reach my goal this year. Don't you think I should pay more attention on them, rather than keep strangling them to do beyond their limit?

Take it easy. InsyaAllah, everything will be fine in a calmer way.

" Life should be touched. Not strangled. You've got to relax, let it happen at times, and at others, move forward with it. "
---Ray Bradbury

It's today~

I'm 55 minutes away from my first class. A little bit nervous actually. Absent for a week was enough to make me feel empty when compared to others. Everyone seems excited. Seeing new cases, learning new terms and so on. Me too, for sure felt really excited. I can't wait to explore another episodes of extraordinary journey this year.

So, today, I'll come to class with my new goals, new passion, and spirit. Being humble is the key. Ask anyone who knows. Share things you understand. With my strong believe in Allah's help, I'll try my best to do better this year, fix everything that messed up in the last year, insyaAllah.

“Our mind is so caught up in comparison that it misses the actual quality of what it sees. We need to drop the comparing attitude to be able to see things as they are.”
---Nithyananda

Another beginning~

"I have always been delighted at the prospect of a new day, a fresh try, one more start, with perhaps a bit of magic waiting somewhere behind the morning."
---John Boyton Priestley

Another story during this new year of mine maybe? It's my final year, and of course I am desperately wanted it to be the most exciting story ever, before I headed my mind, body, and soul back to my beloved homeland.
I do suffered from deadly homesick disease right now. But as usual, it'll be fade away after a few days of classes and hanging out with friends. I cried thinking about how long this year might be, or how short it would be like last year. I do scared though. The spirit of struggling and striving hard was enough to make me feel the tiresome waiting ahead.
It's human's life. No pain, no gain. There'll be no end without the beginning. And we'll be nowhere if we didn't ever start.
So I'm gonna start my beautiful life as a 6th year medical student. It's the FINAL year, remember? So, blast everything out, sweat out all the hidden passion. Not every movement should be something visible. We could just started out slowly, one by one, full with patience and humble, plus the most important ingredient you should never forget, consistency.
I can see everyone do really excited in this final year. It's a super great news of course. Let us together move towards excellency. Amin...
Good luck~ :)